this few days i really think alot.
i think back my past relationship and the recent one.
sometimes i really wonder... what is the problem which is soooo important that i could feel and i can actually decide to end them?
when people ask me, why and whats the reason u end your relationship?
i just say I'm just bored with them! its actually not.
it's attitude. yep, it is..
what? i know my attitude is not as good as best.
BUT i do mind.
a simple things can show what kind of person you are.
I'm a girl who will always put love in the first place..
its sure that i need the feeling of..im the only one.
what i put in front n what i put behind?
what people can see is i leave them behind.
but what i could feel is the point.
yea. i know its hurt that i have to end it.
i really care what and how they make me feel.....
in the first place i will think.. why am i need u with me?
all i need is just make sense yet simple things.
its between me and you.
i want to be with you because i need you.. i want to share everything. im ready to spend my time for the stupidest thing i could do only with you... everything...
why couldn't i feel it that way for all my relationship that i had.
is it wrong with me?
all the way out, im thinking whether should i choose him?
now i know, its not.
the problem is come from him..
i just want to be respected for who i am and who i am when we're together.
i hate being treated like a kids.
i dont wish the same thing happened on me again like my 2cd ex.
i dont want to end the relationship up..
i hope in the relationship.. there's no anythg hidden between us.
its just simple.

i want to say it out.
but i dont know how to say.
write is better than to speak.
to speak is harder than to write.
but its safer to write than to speak.

there's still alots of things i want to mention.
but i really tired...

at first i though i want to follow my friend to penang.
but i think... its better not to go.
i need to rest.
i dont want to care anything as much as i do.
so much i wish i could feel better now...& ever!

i want to spend more time on my own.
since my friend will not coming to visits..

i hate apologies.


too much to care, nothing in return.

i'll be leave behind like always..
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