suddenly not feeling good tim.
my mama say i treat ppl too good wor..
be jo water fish... =.="

think ha think ha real geh... haihs
because i feel that i really dont have real friend now.
most of my friend be friend with me because they want to use me.... sob
i not mean to count for everything la.. but this is real.
go to campus, have to fetch they all but then did they really care about me?
did they ever feel like thanks me for fetching them to campus?
what they gave me?
huibin, i dont know how to say. he love to offence me.
i didnt mean to say like that... its just that i really cant tahan with his attitude sometimes.
the way he talk to me... its liike.... he is looking down on me.. come on, i have my own life!!
who are u to care about me?
kelvin, ok... he love to jokes.. but sometimes i really mind for what he had said..
for example, he love to comment about ah goik, ok.. go for it.
i dont mind.. BUT is it your problem when i be with him? can u respect me for who i am and who i be with??
yiehuan, ok.. i know u have your own thinking... i know you pretty pity because u need to depends on us.. i know you're all alone here... but then, can u think for what we could feel in our situation??
fish, i had no comment on him.. he really a nice person. he also the same waterfish like me..
i remember what u told me before, i dont have to tolerate with anyone, because i got my own life. DONT because of them.. you have to keep everything inside. because of share ticket you have to torelate with them? n waste more money on petrol.. its really doesnt make sence... BUT promises had made me into this situation.... hmm
lastly, shirley.... yep, she's my only friend in this campus.. she can share everything with me.. i really appreciate you. i hope our friendship wont last. [=
ok.. finally, my beloved.
i dont mean to mention anythg.. but sometimes... i just keep in heart lo...

my hing dai..
eric... yep. i know you got your own attitude. i have no doubt about it.
i guess sometimes its our communication problem..
for wat u feel it is very important.. for me its just a very small case.
nah, even we no sms often. doesnt mean that our friendship will lesser each day.
everybody have their way to be social.
i had no doubt if u doesnt like my boy for your doubt.
i dont mind. its between u guys.
i really dont unds, is it got love then no friends?
y u love to make connection between this?? =.=" zzz
all of them.. u all go yamcha also use my car. dont u feel something is wrong?
i dont mean to count.. but in common sence.. is boy who going to pay all that?
duh....
i dont mean to discriminate gender... BUT this is manners.
hmm..watever la...
guan de la....
in fact, me in this world or not... NO PEOPLE do care about it.

its just me.... too bad to be good...

feel like many ppl used me.. haihs........... =(
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|a weird christmas ^^

i just came back from KL.
wat a great experience travel along myself and meet them at Pudu on tuesday.
qin welcome me at Pudu [=
take rapid kl bus go xiao hei place to stay then go her working place to hang out.lol
at night go yamcha around her place at Genting Klang.
my first impression of Genting Klang.
"apa ini? places between Genting & Klang??wat a big diffrence!!"
hahaa.... its a place near utar setapak actually.
but i didnt see utar pun? ish

wednesday, sunny day.
11pm take rapid KL bus go TimeSquarez and Sg Wang^^
damn excited because we are going to meet MeiMei, WangHou and Pika there...hurayss!!
having so much fun with them... talk talk talk.. walk walk walk...
yummy.. brought a nice dress...huhu^^
so damn pain ar my legs.. wearing a high heel. not so high la.. but then stil pain..wuwu
then go find another shoe to replace my high heel.
finaalllly brought a rm20 shoe.. quite ok la...white colour also.
no choice bcuz have to tahan until tonight countdown wor..
very excited but then.............atlast,
Qin's bro accident. she cry.. omg.
all mood also falllll apart ard.
didnt go for countdown, all of us take monorail to go home =(
i though it would be my first year to enjoy countdown as i never before.
but then....nvm la.. we all also dont wish for it.
i hope that her bro will get well very soOn!! pray hard k...
went back home damn tired.. feel like my legs is going to broke like that..wuuwuu.... =S
they all sumore wanna go yamcha because very very hUngry. lol
not in my mind that we countdown in xiao hei's lil small room.haha...
pass our christmas there... hehe =D
still alot of fun la bcuz got friend ma.. hehex muax muax

so sad ler.. qin have to go home tmrw. means i also have to go home too..wuuwuu
go home on christmas...

thursday, sunny day.
9pm send qin go out.
then 11.30pm we go out lu.. go home lu....
Pika say wan go shopping sin wor..
then we go time square again lo since she didnt shop yesterday.
she meet us at night.. hoho bcuz work oh^^
imagine i have to bring along my luggage!! omg...
to shop.. stupid la. dont have locker de wor time square! so dissappppointeeeddd~~~ =S
so pain la whole body... my face also pale jo.. cuz damn damn damn heavy.
pika offer to take for me but i paiseh le... haha ^0o^
2.30pm take monorail go bak le...go KL central buy KTM back kampar
BUT no ticket wor..
me alone go Pudu le... haihs
so sked.. i what also duno de la... have to go alone wor..haihs
go there, not pudu lai de...
at petaling street wor.. zadou... how? how?
sei lo... i die le..
when i get down from Bus, i saw got ppl snatch bag le...so damn scared.
i really going to cry that time... i have no way to go. i dont know where am i... omg..
thank god fish is at pudu, he help me all the way.
i so touch when i saw him running around searching for me..
thanks you, i really proud to have u as my friend.^^
thanks fish. may god bless you for your kindness.
honestly, without him.. i dont know where am i now.
i've been running all the way round without knowing where am i.
thank god, im safe now. fuhh~
mum, i wont go anywhere alone again.
i really scared i cant see u all again...
pudu is really a dangerous place to go...
thank god.
6.40pm reached kampar.
take taxi home alone again... wuhu...
cost me rm5?? wat the F.
hmmm....
stay one night alone at kampar....

friday, sunny day.
go back hometown at 12pm after go dobby.
on the way back, i really feel... "thanks to god for saving me!"
hmm [=

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Saturday, December 6, 2008 * 12:35 AM

FINALLY finished all the midterm test except for Sociology.I expect for higher marks on Mass Com, management and web page design.so far, i got my marketing 50/75 (higher than what i've expected!), 22.5/30 for management and labtest for 6marks over 10(too lil!!!!!). haihs. what had i become?? why i study so hard..(not very hard la..BUT i tried!) the result is okok only?? why they can score higher marks? not very happy with my memorizing skill..i have a very bad memo. even if u asking me about the management thingy now,i will take a very very very damn long period to answer. omg. haihs.

i was getting soooooo moody now.
pretty emo..
sometimes i wonder why?
why should i... going through all this?
i try to give up before...
im wondering how many people could manage? er...accept that their loved ones still close with their ex?
maybe this is only a very small matter... but i really couldnt accept it.
i try to convinced myself, u're right..
but when i remember back what u had did...
i felt stupid.
Am i going to trust u just like that? why?
why must i make it so hard for my life?
why dont i just kick it off... and be single back?
is it so good to be single? dont have any doubt.
why when i really angry at you, after ur few words.. i start to forgive you??

after some while, when i was alone... i start to think...
what is our relationship about?
the meaning of LOVE getting far from me...
i really dont believe what is our future will turn into..BUT i just appreciate it.
sometimes i was angry and scold you out of sudden because i expect something higher from you... i always dissapointed.
i really expect something higher...
something that cant mean by words...
me myself dont know what is that all about..

why i cant believe u like my ex?
he meet his ex, i dont have feeling..
i very trust him that he wont play me, i know how much he love me.
i know.. im truly sorry that i hurt you that much.
i didnt let you know that i love the guy...
the guy who is else where now...with his gf.
but now, i dont feel any about that..because i'd let it go..
frankly, because of this... i was really afraid that i lost the second chance again.

i think too much again...
time to rest now........
tired of emo-ing.

tmrw have to wake up early for MV.


ipoh for movie & pc fair.



should i back home for my mum? i miss her....^^
ma, ngai oi ngi...ngi hee shi gai siong zui liang..zui woi tai ai ah mak.
ngai hee mong ngi yit yit hoi hoi sim sim... mm oi siong sim..
muacks!!~

i lOve you,
you love me...
we are happy family...
with a great BIG hug & a kiss from me to you..
wont you say u love me too.... ^^ haha

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