x Carol yeshin x

|special deepa :D

Tuesday, October 28, 2008 * 4:44 PM

this year I celebrating deepa for the f**kin' first time with Vin da' cutie baby & Navin da' candu =D
craziest night ever.. doing last minute shopping on deepa eve ;D
went parade $ parkson for shop.
Vin buy smart formal from Urban while Navin get casual wear from SODA ^^
they are the last customer for deepa eve at parkson *__*

on the way back to Kampar, switching to plan B, BBQ at navin's house because dont have food for us... we're late and his cousin eating BIG !! well, the curry is damn f**kin nice <<3
we went Tesco,kampar for the charcoal, chicken & liquor !
damn disappointed when the WINE kiosk closed. wth...
no liquor no party man.
VIN cAme out with the idea to clubbing at penang.. wohhhseh... crazy ler..
NavIN said "better rush back to Ipoh for the liqour." LOLs

[[ THE FAMOUS GROUSE ]]

crazy..!! odw back after liquor, NAVIN bought BARCELONA lighter !! woohh...
mule la... i start to have my very first cig that night..
didnt take in.. just playing with the smoke in mouth...damn. since when i became so nottyyyy baby?? XD
Its really nice to know them..
i learn a lot from them...and they chilling me ^^
LOVE THEM HELL LOTSsssa... *hearts*

today i really not very happy.
bb i love you.. but im not happy.
when being with you, i dont feel secure.
because i felt you hide many things from me.
trust. if you want me to trust you, u should be honest with me.
i know when you're cheating...i just pretending that i don't know.
honey, i know and remember lots of thing that u told me.most of them from your mouth.
i just wonder why are you cheating me... *hurts*
i want to love you more, but deep deep in my heart asked me to stop.
the heart tells me that i'll get hurt by the end of the time.
im soooo scared honey.
i hate the feeling of alienated especially from the one i love.
i scared i will leave you one day..
i know you dont want me to think a lot and you feel there's nothing for cheating.
but u know what? i prefer you be honest even i'll get hurt.
atleast i know..
msn. i know something happen with you & your ex.
i really feel unsecured.. i feel like...Im not the only one you love!
so hard to comfort my heart sometimes because they keep asking me to stop...
i scared i'll heartbroken to the max one day =(

please make me feel better for godsake.

im waiting for changes that could change my though toward you.
i want your care..

one more thing, i feel like.. im not important for you.
i always wonder... it seems like your friend are more important than me.
why do i feel like that?
you can go out earlier for the gals in the morning.
you can spend time on dota with your housemate till late night instead of me.
you prefer sleeping the whole day long when im with you....

is there any way to save me back to the right track?
i need you....because i love you.

****
oh yea, wenjin the lil boy.
heard that he got gf ard. shooot!!!!!~
im so freak off when i heard about that..
my mum is true i guess.... sob.
i prefer to be loved than to love ones who dont appreciate me the way it should be.
i wish you & your loved ones happy always. [=
chances come and go.. appreciate the chances because chances might not coming twice ^^

^carol 翌心^

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