i was in a real real downcast today.
i dont sleep well yesterday for no reason. i dont understand why i feel sad and happy in the same time. is there anyone can stay beside me now? where is him when i need you? i know you might be busy with your ex, but its doesnt worth me this way. its suddenly being a big big burden for me. a really big burden that i cant stand it alone.. i wonder am i the one who bring it all and burden myself? why? why should i being this fucking idiot? i thought what i am doing all this while is what i wanted and right! why it turn upside down now?? what should i going to do to make it right? is there anyone to help me? i dont want to cry. cry doesnt cure anything. please help me...

TO: you know who you are,
sometimes i really hope to forgive you. but deep deep inside i couldnt.
since the day in tutorial english class.
u yelling at me without reason.
i cant accept the way u treat me, i just cant.
i always try to ignore it but there's a boundary between us which making me feel that i must protect myself.
i always try to stay away from you...i just hope that u wont annoys me and so do i.

BUT u keep making me feel that way............

does a friend mean to be like that? i really dont understand.

why u always say something that really annoying?
i just cant pretend that i dont see and hear it.

i really HATE all the things u do to me.
hate it so much that i hate myself too.

i blame myself for everything that happen.

its a real large burden on my shoulder.
i cant lift it off.
as i wish i could.

*AT LAST, I CRIED.
in pain.

i just cant find any medicine................ to cure.
no bandage.
keep on bleeding....
in its own way............untill i can die peacefully.
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