yesterday i was having a bad dream. I dont understand why is related to my family? you know i love them right? how can i hate them? i dont quite remember how the story started.i only remember they forced me to do things i really hate..i told them millions of times that i dont want. i tried so hard but no choices. At last, i feel that nobody supports me. i was totally alone.. and i decides to commit suicide??swt.. then i woke up from the silly dream, i was totally down and feels like crying so hard..as hard as i could.. as hard as possible.. but i realize it was just a dream after a few minutes later. I feel that i really hate myself for being in that situation and I also remember that i sing I Lay My Love On You in the dream before i stay awake. weird weird dream..

today i played o2jam.. Suddenly, i flash back what I've done with my ex. he treats me so good, but why i dont have feeling towards him now? feeling guilty.. i joined a room and i played You Are Born To Be Loved lots of time. That fella keep playing the same song..I dont feel bored.. i really love it. [= I remember he purposely play that song for me last time..he always do what i want. and i think i saw him in pasar malam just now but i not sure whether it is him. i remember he use to drive myvi sometimes. That day he sent me message asking for another chances. without thinking much on it..i rejected him. i dont want to give him the second hurts nemore. i found that we are not in the same world. I doesnt belong to him..... its the end of me and U. i hope that u will live happily ever!!~
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